CD60

Assalammualaikum wbt..

harini tepat cd60 T_T. last BFN hari jumaat lepas, 10/10/14, time cd56. i dont feel preggy jugak..af apetah lagi.. ok maknanya selama ni period bergantung pd duphaston je. last time buat atkins (sblm raya haji) dpt la turun dari 64kg ke 59kg. but ya lepas raya makan bagai nk rak! nk diet balik dah kelautttt...tp swimming tetap swimming. skrg sekurang2nya saya swimming 3 kali seminggu. but kalau larat 5 kali seminggu..tp mmg flat la setiap hari..huhu..ok teruskan usaha asma'!.. about my period, rase nk jumpe doc lg 10 hari xperiod..means dlm cd70 cmtu..lama2 xperiod nnt doc adilah marah! huu..pcos really mess up my period. hurm...

but selain swimming, asma skrg tgh mkn:

1. pati delima- rasa sgt manis n masam! takut kekdg nk mkn..kang bertambah teruk kadar gula dlm darahku...mkn mlm sblm tido
2. madu+apple vinegar-ni hubby beli kat genting. die dah campur sekali.. ok la dr kena mkn apple vinegar je kan..masammmmmm..bila ade madu tu bole la telan sikit.. ni makan pagi sblm bekfas
3. multivitamin blackmore 1 biji kali sehari pagi
4. fish oil blackmore 1 biji 2 kali sehari, pagi n ptg
5. habbatussauda' currently mkn brand halagel sebab die ade packing 120 biji/botol..beli ngn member dpt harga rm55..ni mkn 2 biji 2 kali sehari, pg n ptg
6. 2 biji telur half cook setiap pagi.
7. chia seed - ok ni x consisten..asyik lupe je nk mkn..mungkin sbb kedudukan die kat peti sejuk..

well..now im having a very bad habit! sblm ni asma xpenah suke minum nescafe or kopi..but lately sedap gile both of them ok! hari2 mesti pekena 1 kali..huaaaa..caffein is not good for ttcian kan..tp sedappppp...huhu...

tertanya2 kenapa la lambat sgt period ni..mungkin sbb last 5 cycle sblm ni induce by duphaston kot..hurmm...tp cycle ni pelik..time cd18-cd20 tu cramp gile perut mcm nk period. tp pastu xde pape dah. but cycle ni xjumpe langsung egg white. bbt lagi la kelaut sampai malas nk ambik dah.. Ya Allah jika ada nyawa dalam rahimku Kau peliharalah, Jika tidak, Kau turunkanlah darahku itu. amin

btw semalam baru abes 'dose' sireh yg mak bidan tu suro makan..actually terskip 1 hari xmakan! haha..ok bergantung lah, kalau berkesan alhamdulillah, klu xpun, xpe kite usaha kan., Allah yg tentukan.

last week pegi lagi akupuntur. doc still wat kat point yg sama. doc cite last 2 weeks ade couple ni amik ubat homeopati shj dr die tanpa akupuntur. couple ni dr johor dtg semata2 nk jumpe die. lepas 2 minggu mkn, terus lekat..rezeki kan..alhamdulillah. lepas wat akupuntur tu cramp2 perut..hurm...

ok itu shj perkembangan asma. doakan asma period/ade baby dlm perut..org kate selagi xperiod selagi tu ade harapan lagi kan..ok..hope is where i hold on too.. and to Allah i give my greatest hope.

May Allah bless.

How is TTC treating you?

Assalammualaikum wbt,

rase macam pernah tulis entry mcm ni tp malas nk look through previous post balik..hehe

so, how's ttc treating you?

being a ttcian is tough, but somehow it change you to be a better person kan?

i wrote this not to brag or riak (Nauzubillah), but just to share what i felt and what happen to me since i start planning for pregnancy.

at first, i became so knowledgeable! haha. i start to search every single aspect of getting pregnant, what food should i take, what i hv to prevent, which is the best supplement, what happen to my reproductive system, what drugs help with ttc..i googled almost everyday. ttc had became my major in my research (kalo buat paperwork ni dah cemerlang dah..haha)

then it come to a point of experimenting...i try this vitamins, this milk, that method etc etc etc...pantang baca success stories sikit dah nk try. but not all i had tried yet (such as acupuncure, bekam, homeopathy). i tried berurut once but im a bit skeptical of this urut thingy.. takut dgn bidan tu die masukkan benda2 lain ke...erkkk..

but as a human, after all methods fail, you will return back to The Creator. i seek back what i had missed.. i perfecting my solah little by little as i watch my husband perform solah so perfect i became so jealous of him. it is not just the way you pronouce the ayah, it is also how to sit for tahiyat awal, how to angkat takbir or the way you fold your legs when sujud. it's all matters. then, i try to increase my good deads my doing zikr everytime i drove back n forth to work and home. i bought this cute digital tasbih counter and it really help me boost my spirit to do zikr when im driving. so, what i do is, i recite istighfar when on my way to work atleast 1000 times, and salawat for our Prophet 1000 times when i drove home. it was hard at first as i like to tune in to ERA FM when driving and listening to johara's joke keep me awake and focus., but it's weird to listen to songs when you do zikr, a really a contradictory act lol.. so, i tune off the radio and focus on my zikr. but i became bored..so i tune in to IKIM fm, and to my surprise, it helps me to stay focus on my zikr and if im bored or sleepy, i stop and listen to IKIM fm. by doing this, i manage to gain 2 things at a time! knowledge and zikr. alhamdulillah. another thing is i start to concern about my act of sadaqah. so i bought the Aman Palestine piggy bank that only cost RM2 and me n husband trying hard as much as possible to donate everyday and everytime we see that piggy bank. and lastly not to forget about reciting the most famous Prophet Zakaria's du'a. i discipline myself to recite it after each prayer and i 'force' my husband to do that too as i manage to make him memorize that ayat..hehe..good job sayang!

other than that, i realize that my mindset about getting babies are also change. at first i thought getting babies IS THE MAJOR ISSUE! but i was wrong. the purpose of marriage is far more bigger than that!. all this while, im not happy if my period came or i heard news of my best friends are pregnant. hence, it doesnt help me much either. im not happy, my partner stress out whenever im on my no-mood mode. happiness was put on getting babies. then i realize im not going to live my life not being happy because im not pregnant yet. what if in God's will i will not get pregnant at all? am i going to be upset my whole life? hell no! i hv to live my life to the fullest. now im in a mode of changing my view of life im living on. we r ttc ing as hard as we could but we leave the rest to The All Mighty. we laugh when we do stupid things, we cry to ease our burden.

let's change from inside out. you will feel the sweetness of ttc.

Happy Ramadhan Karem everyone. why not make a new start this ramadhan?

Gelabah

Assalammualaikum wbt..

ye fizikally xnampak gelabah tp hati Allah shj yg tahu. fyi dearest readers, saya ade kakak ipar yg kawen same tahun dgn kami tp masih xde rezeki utk menimang chy mata juga. but semlm die dtg uma n die gtau my mil, and my mil gtau saya yg akak dah 2 bln xmai period n last month period pun sehari je. tp xcek upt lg..so ade chance pregnant. i was like..wha.........ttt....cek la kan..buat resah hati ini je..

hurm, rase gundah gulana pulak..if my sil preggy, sedihnye...bukan sedih sbb die pregnant..tp sedih sebab saya x lagi..dah la die xstart treatment ape2 pun..umur dah 30+..n berjaya pregnant T_T..jahat x? nauzubillah... T_T May Allah protect our imaann..

im happy for her if she really is pregnant..atleast my mil ade cucu baru. xperlu tunggu kami..but in the same time i feel sad n depress..Ya Allah..ease my burden and give me strong shoulder.

-dilema xtentu hala-

7th appointment LPPKN - postpone IUI

Assalammualaikum  wbt..

it takes a while to get my rational state of mind to write this post.

18/4/14 (Jumaat) lepas saya g final scan utk cek saiz telur after another 2 jab on puregon 50iu, the the result is very frustrating. telur semua xmembesar dan byk. saiz lbh kurang sama mcm last time scan iaitu 9-10mm shj. doc kate sy xrespon langsung pd ubat. so iui terpaksa postpone ke next cycle. sedih T_T. tp doc kate have faith because we believe miracle things happen here. ade je yg kes mcm awk tp end up pregnant tau, kate doc hamizah. thanks for this support doc. tp seriusly sedih..hurm..

dah la g scan sorg2  aritu..time drive balik tu xrase pape sgt..bile smpai uma terus masuk bilik xkuar2..hubby balik kjp je..die tnye cmne semua..sy jwb membase basi je..tp die xpasan la yg sy tgh sedih gile.. then die kuar g kje balik.. so mlm tu nanges sorg2 dlm bilik..tepon ummi..nanges..pastu xtahan msj hubby suro balik teman nanges..baru hubby perasan yg i tgh sedih..haha..my hubby is so naive..isteri sedih pun xperasan..ape la...huhu..die terus rush balik..then nanges puas2 lagi smpai mate bengkak..

esknye xkuar bilik smpai pukul 10 lebih..kuar pn sbb lapa..then selubung ngn selimut lg..huu..

ya Allah berilah kekuatan...tunggu period or period delay..

Negative, please go away!

Assalammualaikum wbt..

Adakah anda akan rase sedih bila kawan anda yang kawin setarikh dengan anda baru shj melahirkan anak?

Adakah anda terasa bila ahli keluarga anda tanye xde baby lg ke, and diorg pun menambah, lambatnyeeee/

Adakah anda sangat teruja untuk try sesuai produk yg pada iklannya tertera
"produk utk kehamilan, dijamin berkesan, ramai telah mencuba dan berjaya",
tp bila anda cuba, kesan ape pun tak terasa?

Adakah anda rase annoying bila asyik setiap hari org yg sama ni update,
"owh, hari ni hubby masak ayam sbb baby dpt perut teringin sgt XOXO,  or
"baby, sila behave ibu nk g kje ni, jgn uwek2 k" or
"ye,aku gemuk sbb aku pregnant, so pehal?"

Adakah anda terasa bila hubby asyik ajak melawat kwn2 die yg baru dpt baby?

Adakah anda baca semua ni dan anda terangguk2 mengiakannya?

ok welcome to the club.